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I won t grow up song9/20/2023 ![]() ![]() And I won't tell no one you're name"- Most of the time I would talk to her I would be coming back from guard duty or patrol exhausted as hell, going to go listen to Pandora on my laptop in the barracks. ![]() "A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio. Again I was there when she cried, when she missed me, when she wished so bad for me to come home. Sound familiar? She is currently finishing the divorce with him. She had another daughter with that husband who was also a jerk and asshole that i wanted to beat the shit out of. After her first marriage she tried it again. Now there's nothing to believe and reruns all become our history"- She had her first daughter at 19 making it hard be a young mother. And that extent that I would go to make her happy. Even though she was married and divorced she admitted that she still loved me and missed me: not for who i was but because I had been there for her when she needed me the most. "Don't it make you sad to know that life is more than who we are"- In the army we were taught this and especially in almost any relationship you're in, it's not usually about who you are but what you do and how you treat people that people will remember you by. But even when i got lost in the customs of the Army she would always remind me that I still loved her. And there I was fighting for my country trying to become my own star with honor. She thought that in that marriage she would be shown what she truly was. "Did you lose yourself somewhere out there? Did you get to be a star?"- She had seemed to have gotten lost in this idea of a perfect marriage, when it truly wasn't what she had wanted. But i would still be there for her when she needed to talk to me, even if it was just by laptop or sat phone. I took my scars of being away from her in Afghanistan. She had to deal with the scars of her childhood and the past of her relationship. The past is never far"- Later on she got married and had a daughter with an abusive husband. I would make sure I would do anything to make sure that if she needed to talk to me I'd be there. She would always come to me when things got bad and I wouldn't tell anyone the real things that were happening in her life. For us telling each other our names was getting to know each other. And I won't tell no one you're name."- Getting to know someone's "name" doesn't necessarily mean literally. "You could hide beside me, maybe for a while. She had to learn how to take care of herself more or less. We don't belong to no one that's a shame"- She had grown up in a broken home with an abusive drunk father that would usually hit her mother. "Now we're grown up orphans that never knew their names. ![]() At the time she was living with her divorced father who, after she read the letters, threw them away because he told her to stop "dreaming" that we'd be together. "Letters that you never meant to send, got lost or thrown away"- During Basic Training in Fort Benning, GA i sent a whole lot of letters to her. ![]() Then I left for the Army and didn't propose to her. All as we lay together, her head on my chest. How our children would look, where'd we live. We would talk about having a family together. "All the dreams you never thought you'd lose, got tossed along the way"- We spend almost every day with each other. I wanted to propose to her but never came around to doing it. We would tell each other everything and help each other out. "Even though the moment passed me by I still can't turn away"- Before I left for the army I had been with this girl for over 2 years. I think what makes this song great is that so many people can relate to it. ![]()
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